We must train our basics to be like water; in fact we must become like seaweed. Seaweed under water is attached to the ground. Like some kind of water Tenchijin, we must become seaweed and sway without tension in the stream of life. Stop hugging hard onto things. Let go of your beliefs and mental structures and discover the true freedom of life. The Bujinkan is a tool that is to be used mainly out of the Dojo.
Hatsumi Sensei explained it once: “training in the Dojo is only a few hours per week, life is 24 hours a day”.
The more you “keep going”, the more likely you will reach this higher state of freedom you are looking for.
Here is a poem called “Seaweed”, by D.H.Lawrence explaining it perfectly:
Seaweed sways and sways and swirls
As if swaying were its form of stillness;
And it flushes against fierce rock
It slips over it as shadows do, without hurting itself